Dream Intrepretation

6 25 08 I seen an elevator and people are getting on. When I notice it was going to the penthouse, I started to get dizzy. I want to go backdown. I believe I was the 7th one on that elevator. They get off and I want to push the button to go down. There were male and females there. I looked for the button and couldn’t find it. They are convincing me to get off. I do and then I am deciding to leave again and the lady that is in charge will not interview any of them if there isn’t a certain amount. She and them convince me to stay. I do and she interviews me first. I couldn’t answer the questions. I couldn’t do improv. I couldn’t read her. I confessed that I am who I am. I am metaphysical practitioner. Then the one that was suppose to be there shows up. She is young, pretty, long hair but late. The women in charge says it is to late. I like her presences. She is staying. She is going to be a great access. I couldn’t believe my eyes and ears.

I am going up to the HigherSelf. I am letting the illusion of fear effects me physically. I made ego excuses to go back down. My male and female are working together and are ready for me to become integrated with them (they are accepting me.) there was 6 (equilibrium; harmony, balance, and humanity.). I am 7 (the spiral is humanity's connection to its source, god, Christ consciousness) The authority is 8 (authority, Eight is Infinity - Paradise regained) I am needed before they can go on. The yin/yang can’t work together until I am on board. The buttons are the triggers that keep me in this my box of ego illusion. I am almost convinced that I am to be there. I still don’t think I belong. When the one in charge talks to me, I begin to freeze up (fear) then I decided that I am going to be honest of the convictions and passions of my purpose. To my surprise (ego boundary) she (HigherSelf) accepts me. (ego always wants me to believe that I will not be accepted by Divine Spirit) The yin/yang is balanced in the higher realm. I don’t know much about what the HigherSelf wants. I convinced myself that I don’t know enough. But when I started to tell my truth of all the experiences that I have accumulated through all my epiphanies from my HigherSelf. She accepts me. I didn’t realize that was my teacher. I couldn’t do improv which means that I couldn’t lie anymore to myself or tell her what she wants to hear in order to accept me. When I finally allowed myself to stop being ashamed of me and feel the passion and conviction of me, I was able to let her accept me. She already had. I just had to convince myself she did. I had to stop believing in the negative ego. The other part of me that had come up stairs and was late and perfect on the outside was turned away. That is not what my HigherSelf is looking for. When I heard and saw that my HigherSelf wanted me I was in shock.